Qur’an on the outside – Qur’an on the inside
The Qur’an has an interesting effect once memorised. The whole Qur’an doesn’t have to be memorised, rather what is important here is the ongoing effort in memorising and revising – the contact with the Qur’an and internalising it.
What I have noticed is that I am more conscious of my behaviour online and offline. At times it gets rather frustrating. I am a normal person from the UK (born, raised and educated in the UK) and I have many flaws in my character and lots of quirks in my outlook on life, sense of humour, language used, thought patterns, manners of dealing with people etc… in short, everything that makes me ‘me’ is somewhat tainted and can be improved upon. It is a natural consequence of life but a lot of it is at some sort of conflict with the Qur’an and Islamic teachings.
Currently that is having to go under the microscope – all the time. That’s where it can get frustrating. Aside from memorising the Qur’an there is really a lot more to address. So you end with this constant “I shouldn’t have said that”, “I shouldn’t have done that”, “I can’t think like that”, and so on.
Not all of this is a result of understanding the meanings of the Qur’an. A lot of it is from getting a glimpse of what it means to be a memoriser/carrier of the Qur’an.
You see what you essentially do is you put yourself on a pedestal for people to scrutinise. Even if you do not intend it, you are saying loud and clear “I am working on bettering myself”. How? Well a simple example is somebody asking you what you are doing/where you are going? Your reply of “I am memorising Qur’an” or “I am going to the madrasah to memorise Qur’an” has instantly put you in a place, that the vast majority of the time, you are not worthy, nor a good representative, of. If you ever end up in an argument with someone it will be one of the very first things they will pick on. I think this is because they are afraid of reflecting upon themselves and their shortcomings. Seeing you trying to improve yourself and please Allah makes them feel insecure and knocks their ego because your primary concern isn’t financial success, which, I think I can safely say, is what most people measure their worth, and that of others, by.
Perfection is attained by traversing the seeking of it, in and of itself we cannot achieve perfection.
Just something to think about.
I like this section bro – Inshaa’Allah keep updating it regularly please.
This is how I feel too, most especially the part in the beginning about memorizing Qur’an is so much more than that, and how you realize all these flaws in your character and speech. Please continue to update brother